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Name: Jack
Birthday: 6/10/1989
Interests: Anything to do with flm making: directing, editing, writing, acting, the whole scha-bang.
Expertise: Being really really ridiculously good-looking.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Entertainment
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AIM:  funkfoot15
Member Since:
12/29/2004
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| so i haven't been here in awhile. what with the fact i can blog on facebook and myspace, xanga feels obsolete. though i admit i can't bring myself to delete this page. it is what thrust me into blogdom, and what first showed me the beauty of maintaining long distance friendships via al gore's internet. i don't know why i've returned to my old "stomping grounds" seeing as the vast majority (including myself) having jumped ship, but here i am. so here is my latest blog, posted yesterday on facebook, and now making an early morning appearance on xanga. could this be the series finale??? /// A wise man once said "pressure busts pipes". Actually, he said it just last week. I was at work and we were getting slammed with orders and a couple of people began starting to freak. And my buddy Dion just turns to me and chuckles, "pressure bursts pipes". You know I think that's a pretty apt analogy for how we treat God. When things are easy, not much is being asked of us, we're like, "oh yeah God and I are like this (crosses fingers)". Then something happens. Could be a death in the family, or a sinful indiscretion. Whatever it is it challenges your status quo. Pressure is applied, and it would be atypical of us not to run from God. To turn our back and effectively give him the finger. Because when things turn sour we freak. Pressure busts pipes. | | |
| My apologies, my blogs have been sparatic as of late, and my last one was certainly full of nothing. Yet I digress, and we move forward.
Today has been a challenging day. We are about a week into Blitz, currently residing in Archibold, Ohio at the King household, and today we traveled to Toledo for a workproject. The majority of the crew headed to a church to do some nasty work scraping the floor, walls, and ceiling of the basement (or something like that). Meanwhile, five others and myself spent the day at an elderly woman's house installing a drop ceiling. It was a physically tiring day, though I will not deny our productivity and the difference that was made.
However today has also been, more especially so, an emotionally challenging day. No reason in particular, the Lord just started revealing things to me, and so began my latest journal entry:
Who am I?
Do I embody Christ in a manner that attracts others to me, or do I have a resounding attitude of pessimism which disgusts those who surround me?
I feel as though trapped within my flesh is a battle raging on, between Gracious Jack and Snide Jack. A constant war between the part of me which loves to love and the part which loves to hate.
I've noticed that there are days I am perfectly content enjoying the company of my peers, whether actively or silently. On the other hand I find myself enslaved by days when I simply desire to hurt as many people as I can.
I realize full well that these are blatant attacks by the devil himself, and I know it is because my ability to love has the potential to be revolutionary, and yet there are times I so quickly surrender to him, and fall to cynicism. I continue to pursue Jesus, and I know that really that is all I need. I know that His strength is sufficient. I know that with Him as my rock, the dark prince will not move forward. Maybe that's my shortcoming. I know these things, and I let them rattle around in my head, but do nothing with them. I really do not know where I am going with all of this, I just really felt like I had to get this out.
If I could just ask those of you reading this (making the assumption that if you are reading this then you are probably of significance to me, and we have a loving relationship) would you keep me accountable? Would you pray for me? Would you remind me why my faith is in Jesus Christ, and Him alone? Please? | | |
| ok so FIRST of all, i'm so stinkin tired of all of these ads on pickin FACEBOOK which are constantly bombarding us and challenging what my Jesus claimed to be truth, especially those barely legal, practically porn photos that continue to be splashed across myspace and facebook to promote "dating services". yeah, i'm sure when a guy sees that ad his immediate thought is "wow, she's probably a great girl. i'd love to simply get to know her." let's not be naive, the line which separates love from lust has been almost completely destroyed. and the sad thing is that whoever keeps placing these ads has obviously found great success through it. what has our nation become? ALSO, as for "safe sex" i heard an analogy used once which I thought hit the nail on the head. "Take a fully loaded revolver and remove all but one bullet. Is it a safe gun? No, anyone would be a fool to think otherwise. It is a safer gun, however it still has the potential to be very deadly. Sex is the same. Condoms, birth control pills, etc. do not make sex safe. std's can and are still passed, pregnancy still happens. Granted the odds are better, and birth control does make sex safer, but not 100% safe. It's not ever safe." have you ever felt like your nation is slowly being torn apart and eaten away and you are helpless to stop it? welcome to my life. i'm thankful to know that i am helpless, without the help of the Christ on my side. please continue to pray for our nation, and especially our youth as a whole who are being blindly led to the slaughter by this belief in the "sexual movement". yeah it's a movement alright. it's being led by the dark prince himself with the sole purpose of destruction. also pray for those of us who struggle daily to place our faith and hope and love in Jesus Christ, and not our fleshly desires. | | |
| Life has been so crazy busy lately, and yet strangely... slow moving. I don't know how to explain it, but those who've experienced it know exactly what I'm referring to, but I digress.
December is in full swing and quickly one-third of it has slipped by. Things which need to get done have been at an all-time high for me. In the past week alone I have written and sent my newsletters, memorized and recited 5 additional passages of Scripture, written and submitted my paper on Colossians, memorized and been practicing my Beyond the Walls drama, and I am currently reading and writing a paper on Abba's Child by Brennan Manning (due Friday), finishing up my testimony outline, continuing to work on my drama, pack for break, and today we will begin working on appeal letters. Not as stressful of a time for me as one would've expected. God has blessed me with contentedness and peace about it all.
As of late God has been teaching me some interesting things. I will not go into specifics for they are personal things which I am keeping confidential between myself and God, but in the general He has been showing me who I am, who I need to be, and what my identity needs to be based in. God has used the past couple of months as a rebuilding period in my life. Rebuilding the truths which I learned as a child but discarded as a young teenager. Rebuilding my relationship with my Abba. It has been a wonderful time, and I thank him for it.
I look forward to coming home on this week. Although I intend to use it somewhat as a rejuvenating sabbatical, I also plan to get a few things accomplished over those two weeks (homework included).
PRAYER LIFE
The friends and family of those who gave their lives over the past few days in the midst of a tragic and heartbreaking week of violence. Continue to pray that those hurting would look to God in faith for His healing hands, and not force blame upon Him.
As I mentioned previously I will be sending out appeal letters this week and next, but I would ask you to pray about supporting me financially as I will be gooing overseas both this February and July. I would also ask that you additionally consider supporting a few of my fellow Kairos students who are also in great financial need, perhaps moreso even than I. If you would like for me to send you an appeal letter please message me with your address. If you would simply like to send me or my colleagues financial support right away message me and I will send the address. | | |
| Woot. It's been awhile now since I last updated, lemme fill you all in on what's goin down, here in O-Town. GOD THINGS ^^^ you like my title up there? yeah i dunno, couldn't think of anything better. anyhowdy, God is good (you know FYI for those who didn't know it). He's been doing some stuff in me. first off, I'm trying to be quick to listen, slow to speak (that's Biblical, you know) because sometimes i have selective hearing and choose to only listen to myself (dang i suck sometimes.) it's funny though. yesterday was the first day i tried to ut back on my talking, and a bunch of people asked me throughout the day if something was wrong (im starting to think i talk a tad muchos) also, i love movies. so i was watching A Beautiful Mind the other night (i'm sorry dad, i know how you disdain russell crowe, but the guys got some chops). back to GOD THINGS though, i love movies because i often get revelations from them and this movie was no different. ***WARNING (SPOILERS AHEAD)*** So, basically Crowe's character, John Nash, ends up being a schizo and you find out two of the supporting characters were his imagination the whole time. so I start thinking to myself, Jack! what if you had to live your life not being able to trust your eyes, and everything you see? having to second guess your own senses? that would SUCK. yet maybe thats how our lives need to be lived. if we trust our eyes, than they would tend to suggest that God does not exist. we cannot see him. we cannot feel him. we DO see all the negative in the world, and rarely anything positive. our eyes can be our worst enemies, sometimes. anyway, thats my BIG IDEA for the day. THANKSGIVING & KAIROS Well, first off, I got to go home for Thanksgiving Break. That was a truly interesting thing. So, I drove back (9-ish hours) with Caleb and Crystal, that wasn't terrible (we got Arby's 5 for 5.95, which made my day!) also, Jenn and Mike came down from moody to spend the week with us, cuz we're bomb like that. so we watched a lot of movies (inside man, 300, the holiday, pride & prejudice, a walk to remember, flightplan, and american gangster), we did a lot of sleeping (more the girls than anyone else), and we just enjoyed the holidays. what can be said about thanksgiving other than the typical wonderful Food, Family, Friends, and Football. and Thanks giving. Anywho, it was sick. Also, I had some road trouble (i.e. i got a speeding ticket, i got a little lost, i spun out on an interstate off-ramp, etc.) I digress. Kairos itself has been a tad different this week. We are officially "kicking it into high gear". We have been practicing our dramas for Blitz, quite a bit, which is fun, but a lot of work. Also, we have been writing our newsletters for publication. In addition, we have multiple papers and verse memorization to work on. Speaking of which, it is being neglected. Please excuse me. | | |
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